My family and I had gotten into a
semi-normal routine. Hospital during
morning hours until after doctors rounded, back to the Ronald McDonald house
for playtime and nap with Caleb, dinner, then we would go back to the hospital
to say goodnight and pray over Isaiah.
This particular day was no different.
We had just finished dinner and
drove over to the hospital to say goodnight to Isaiah. We walked into his hospital room smiling and
talking, and within moments of us arriving, every machine in his room began
beeping. His oxygen levels were
fading. The nurse came in trying
everything she knew to help, yet all she did was to no avail. My heart began racing, palms sweaty, and
knees wobbly as I heard the words Code Blue.
I could not panic because I was holding our older son Caleb in my
arms. Within seconds, the room was
filled with doctors, nurses, respiratory therapists, and techs.
I walked out into the hall with
Caleb because I could not watch. It was
like watching really scary moments in a
movie where you cover your eyes because you don’t think you can handle seeing
it, but you peek through your fingers every once in while only to cringe or
scream. I was pacing back and forth and
praying, loudly might I add. My eyes
were going back and forth from the attending doctor’s face and my husband’s
calm stature in the room. My husband
stood with such calm and confidence. Our
baby was flat lining, yet my husband remained calm. And somehow his stature, helped me in keeping
my composure instead of falling apart at the seams.
I will never forget that
moment. I was completely full of faith
and fear all at the same time. This was
a real-life encounter with the prayer in Mark 9: 24: Lord I believe, help my
unbelief! I was full of faith while
“shaking in my boots.” As I was pacing
in the hall; I still heard the beeps, I saw the look of concern on the doctors’
faces, I saw my husband’s calm demeanor, and I saw my son who I held in my arms
while praying and pacing. So many
thoughts were running through my head: Lord
Isaiah cannot die, I can’t handle it, Caleb cannot be traumatized by watching
his little brother die, his death will not bring you glory. And verbally my prayer was, God, I know you
did not bring him this far to let him die now. God you are all powerful and you
will complete this miracle!
Finally, after taking an X ray and
reviewing it, the problem had been spotted.
Isaiah’s breathing tube had slipped out of place, so therefore, it was
not doing its job. The doctors said he
had been breathing on his own, and because he was not fully ready for that, he
became overworked and tired. They
replaced the tube with a new one and the beeping stopped. I was able to let out a huge sigh of
relief. It seemed as if that code blue
lasted for an awfully long time, but in actuality from the time of them calling
a code blue to them replacing his tube, was only about seven minutes or so.
Fast forward to date. That same little baby who was laying in that
incubator fragile, extremely sick, and flat lining, is the same little one year
old who is full of joy, energy, and life.
I watch him tackle challenges head on every day. He is a living and breathing testimony for
his doctors, therapists, me, and I’m sure many others.
As I ponder about that code blue,
I began to think of the dreams and aspirations that I thought were dead. Just thinking about that day gives me hope
and proves that God’s promises never fail.
No matter how lifeless your dream may seem, God can turn it around with
your cooperation and honesty. Be honest
with Him about your fear while believing that He is able to do exceedingly and
above all we ask or think.
Isaiah is living proof that a
code blue is not a death sentence. Now
is the time to dust off those dreams, goals, and aspirations and watch God
honor His promises. This is the reason
why I write, in hopes of encouraging someone that God is with them and there is
always a reason to move forward. As you read this, I pray
that the very power of the Resurrection of Christ be endowed upon you and your God
given gifts and talents. May the God of
the whole universe be made known to you in a more personal and relevant way
during this season of your life.
